Once again my tears have fallen.
But not for someone else.
They fall silently and inward
Only for myself.
Its ok this time
That my tears are for me.
I trust myself,
Just this once.
Tears of retribution
Of anger and utter joy.
My life in peaceful turmoil.
Love and pain in chaotic harmony.
Just for a change
I can be strong enough to change.
Change my heart
And all my life.
Peaceful and complete
In hope and dismay.
My feet firmly planted
In the Rock in which I anchor.
Just like a caterpillar,
I am curled up
Unready to break through
Into the world.
One day when my hearts complete.
My wings will unfold
And
Behind that smile is a life once known.
Lost forever. Hidden. Denied.
Behind that smile is a pain unending.
Constantly burning, brown and unbearable.
Behind that smile a shattered set of dreams.
Crushed, scattered and forlorn.
Behind that smile a tear stains.
Scorching and decollated completely.
Behind that smile a truth submerged.
Never to be seen or told.
Behind that smile, a depth incomparable.
Chasms, deep and unrevealed.
Behind that smile lies a past
Tortured, terrifying, and full of regret.
Behind that smile a joy
Unending, faithful and unconditional.
Behind that smile a brown eyed girl
Whose past is hidden
And